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Hi. It’s NorthRay again.🤏

After my first post, I got a few private messages. Thanks for the kind words! Some people asked: “So, did you blow your deposit yet?” or “How much have you made?”

And here’s the funny part.

I haven’t opened a single trade yet. Not one. I was even afraid to touch the demo account.

Why? Let me explain step by step.

Last time I said I stumbled upon trading, got excited, and started reading. That’s true. I read a ton of articles and watched dozens of YouTube videos. Bloggers with big smiles show charts, say “it’s easy, just catch the trend,” and point at the screen.

I believed them. I thought, “Okay, time to act.”

Yesterday evening I sat down with my laptop, made some coffee, took a deep breath and… downloaded MetaTrader 4.

Guys, if you’ve never done this—imagine opening a spaceship cockpit when all you’re licensed to drive is a bicycle.

I just sat there staring at the screen for 20 minutes.

Charts. Green and red candles. Lines crawling, jumping, speeding up, freezing. Indicators with names that sound like spells—MACD, RSI, Bollinger. Where do I even click? What does “open order” mean? And “stop-loss”—is that a friend or an enemy?

I honestly tried to figure it out. Clicked through tabs. Read tooltips. Felt like a complete idiot.🤥

Then this weird feeling hit me. Not fear of losing money—I don’t even have any in play yet. It was the fear of doing something wrong.

You know that feeling when you’re standing in front of a door to something completely new, and you’re afraid you’ll break something with your clumsy hands? That was me.

I closed the terminal. Exhaled. And said to myself, “Michael, are you serious?...